Confessions of a libra

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01.06.25

My unashamed passion for astrology has been a major component of my journey towards self actualisation. We have already explored previously how my 12th house placements are the reason you view me as this ethereal, Priestess of desire – now let me take you through The House of Good Spirit. The 11th house in astrology is an Aquarian house ruled by Uranus; the zany, futuristic and intellectual planet/archetype of the zodiac. In modern astrology is seen as the house of hopes, dreams, social network, revolutions and online presence.

Traditionally during Mesopotamia & Hellenistic Greece, this was the house of divine sponsorship. The house that dictated joy, ancestral blessings and living patrons. Where I am concerned, my entire birthchart is ruled by Venus (Libra rising), who rules the 11th house of my chart. This means my entire life path is tied to themes of; friendship, beauty, love and connection in the public eye. Which could explain why you are reading this blog post.

Kings would query who they attract as allies advisors and loyalists based on their own charts. For example, a King with Venus in the 11th would win the loyalty of artists, diplomats or lovers. A King with Saturn in the 11th house may not have many supporters but those they have are steady and enduring. In astrology you can use synastry to overlay two people’s charts and find out how they trigger each other, for good or bad. Kings would use this very system to assist them with navigating court and political alliances.

Wherever Aquarian energy or Uranian energy lies, you get innovation. Anyone with heavy Aquarian or Uranian energy marches to the beat of their own drum. If you have this energy you are both social, well-loved but misunderstood. You are known by many, loved by many, idealised by many and you intimidate plenty by being yourself. Often this energy is blunt which rubs people up the wrong way. Uranian energy can also give you; humanitarian tendencies, a positive relationship or outlook on technology, intellectualism and sapiosexual tendencies.

Now that we have laid the foundation of the 11th house, let me explain how this has affected my life. Firstly being ruled by the 11th house is the reason I detest being categorised. I hate being placed in a box because people are uncomfortable with my expansiveness. The futuristic energy of this house means, I might be doing things you don’t understand now, but you will understand in a few years time. I don’t feel the need to please you with my self expression. This is incredibly jarring to people with low self-esteem or who base their whole existence on things like tv and trends. It gives me slight hipster energy, where I like discovering things early before they blow up. I make decisions based off of intrinsic vibrational match, as opposed to someone’s opinion outside of me. That kind of personal agency in a patriarchal world is jarring to anyone asleep to this system.

If you have ever met me in real life – in some sort of group whether that be a hobby, workplace or otherwise – you would know that I am generally a popular person. This is not to be conceited, it’s just how 11th house energy works. I end up knowing a lot of people in a group environment. I learn people’s names, interests, fears and with my Venusian qualities combined; it makes me adept at navigating social environments. Once we are in the 11th house we are looking at influencing a collective, you do not play small in this house. I am someone the collective projects their admiration and desires onto. As such, I can influence beauty standards or trends by being myself. With Venus in the 11th house, I am attracted to intelligence first before physical beauty. This is something I am personally proud of.

My Mars is in the 11th house as well. Mars is the planet of; drive, aggression and sex. I move boldly in group dynamics and am not passive about my dreams. When you add that my Mars is also in Leo, you can see that I take myself very seriously. My wants and my needs will be fulfilled one way or another and I am willing to work for it. In a group setting or to the collective, I give leader energy. Especially in the realms of; activism, desire, taboos and the social sphere. I have a strong value system, one that has been well considered and is fluid once convincing information has been presented. If you are around me with this placement, if I don’t scare you entirely, I will likely spur you into action. This could be through motivating you by living my truth or because of comparison. Where sex is concerned this makes me more open-minded, and open to taboos which you may have guessed already through this blog.

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My Lilith is in the 11th house. Now things get interesting. This was a huge pain in my behind when I was younger, but now that I have mastered my Lilith in the 11th. You can see that I have mastered it by putting myself online more publicly (my poor Cancer midheaven) – ready to be admired and hated in equal measure. Give it your best shot, I will just transmute all that energy for my success, thank you very much.

Lilith is an steroid representing your dark feminine energy. Likely when you are younger, these are the traits you actively repress in yourself. When I was younger this energy manifested by me being popular yet feeling very lonely. This is because I knew I was different but often craved to fit in by being more like my peers. It never worked, because I was never built for that. I have experienced social anxiety from the projections that people place upon me. It has been a trend in my life since I was young to join a new group, be idealised really quickly then have people pull away because they freak themselves out. They decide that there is something uncomfortably different about me. They can’t quite put their finger on it, but it reminds them that they conform where I do not – which is jarring.

I have often attracted friends who secretly envy me. So if you are one of them reading this, I am onto you and in a sense maybe it’s not entirely your fault. This happens to me in any group situations as well. It is common for me to feel excluded even from groups that I created myself. I have often scared people because I am willing to speak the truth that they are actively avoiding, before they are ready. Having 11th house placements makes me someone who hates discriminating against others. I often work to be open minded about people and states that don’t apply to me. So it has caused me problems when I was younger because a part of me wanted to control the way people discriminated against me and saw problems in my autonomy and originality.

Now that I have mastered it, I can see clearly now that it’s in my eccentricity that I have gained good will. It is in me sticking to my guns, sticking to my weird interests (like astrology) that I am blessed by the universe. It has never worked for me to play small and follow someone else’s lead. I am not made to be led, and authority figures have often been grated because they sensed this quality in me. I attract a lot of people that secretly wish they could live and act like I do. It just comes down to what you do with this information. A lot of people choose to steep in their jealousy instead of using it as a learning opportunity.

Lastly I have Psyche another asteroid in the 11th house. Psyche represents where you experience deep intimacy often through tests or initiations. It can represent your soul wounds or soul gifts. This placement means I am psychically attuned to the collective. I don’t just see people, I feel their archetypes. I evolve through chosen family (such a precious concept to me you have no idea), collaborators and on digital platforms. It doubles down on my being misinterpreted in group settings. I can often feel when a group I existed in starts to ostracise me even psychically. I can tell when a group has been slandering me even before the gossip reaches my ear (which it always does, thanks spirit).

As a result of this wound, I often love people that others underestimate or dismiss because I am seeing deeper than the surface. I can also identify other people’s wounds with ease because of how I have been treated in this life. My brand as you see me online is likely to awaken you psychosexually and spiritually. You’ve noticed I write things that other people are shy about. And yet, you keep coming back and in some ways you are finding yourself growing and changing the more you interact with my ideas.

Outside of my confessions of a libra blog, I have created a brand called Cosmic Spark. I have a blog cosmicspark.blog as well as videos I post on Youtube and Tiktok. I created this brand, in light of a more recent spiritual awakening (not the first) as a way to connect with others like me. I decided to actively be a beacon for like-minded souls. Anyone who has been in my life previously will not be surprised because this is a long-held dream.

I’ve always imagined that I would be known in more than just my local community because astrologically the local community is the 3rd house of Gemini/Mercury. Whereas the 11th is about the collective and being in public. With my humanitarian tendencies, I have a plan not only to awaken the collective but to make and redistribute wealth in a way that feels equitable to me. I am very puzzled by those who hoard wealth, those with hyper-individualistic tendencies and that 11th house adds to my old soul energy. Which means that I often find people’s decisions to be ‘young’ or ‘immature’. I have felt this way, since I was myself considered young and immature.

The 11th house doesn’t care about your hierarchies. I only crave power, because it is the only way to be listened to. Worse so, being a black person then being a woman on top of that. It is not simply enough to be attractive. I have had male and female friends be jealous and competitive because they perceive me to be attractive and alluring. However, people forget that what I am doing, I am doing against the current. My phenotype is not the standard of beauty, especially in the Western world. Many of these people jealous of me weren’t black themselves. The same person you are jealous of, is the same person in a police interaction who is likely to be killed or abused by virtue of her skin colour. I have been dehumanised in so many of my daily interactions because of my race but people don’t see that. They see me looking elegantly dressed, makeup on, strolling through a group event smiling and think oh, she thinks she’s all that! It’s hard not to view this perspective as immature.

Learning about yourself deeply and learning to face yourself in the mirror is a gift. It’s not easy to choose to look at both your positive and your negative patterns equally. We tend to only want to hear the good things about ourselves, it’s safer. I hope to illustrate through astrology, that any method that helps you unearth things that feel unique to you or isolating, can be incredibly freeing. Through astrology I realised that there were good reasons why people haven’t liked me and not just because of the 11th house. This made it easier to accept letting people go. Now when I meet people who obsess over me for a month then pull away, I shrug. That’s just part and parcel. I will always magnetise soul family, so it makes it easier to detach.

Check your own 11th house placements to find out, where your fortune lies in the social and public sphere. Ask yourself what your friendships are reflecting back to you. Who do you become when you are truly witnessed? May your journeys to self actualisation be patient and fruitful.