Confessions of a libra

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22.05.25

Intuition was always my friend, I was just trained out of hearing her. I had a disconnection between my mind and my body. As many of us can relate to. This can be a result of trauma (childhood, physical or sexual abuse), religion or emphasis on intellectualism. I knew I had an imbalance so going into my 20’s I made it my mission to connect with my intuition. Even in years where I had that disconnection, I knew my intuition has always been spot on when I was in danger. Whether life threatening or psychological. In my body it was either a gut twist or a body hum in agreement once the thought crossed my mind. I wanted the full spectrum. I wanted to be able to feel into decisions instead of stressing myself sick. Especially as a libra sun.

I learnt how to meditate in a way that made it effective for me through Andy from Headspace. Andy is a co-founder of Headspace, he didn’t teach me directly but that was the first person who explained what I should be doing in my body in a way that I could transmute. Suddenly I went from trying to meditate and feeling like a knob, to being amazed how much I could enjoy being in my own body. Truly, when you learn how to just observe, time slows down and the magic happens. Now I’m not your guru. I meditate all the time and fall asleep. I have a special talent for being able to sleep under any environment. Beautiful frequency music included.

Getting into yoga as a practice. This is something I engaged in largely on my own, using Youtube yoginis. I didn’t do it all year round, I always did it in bursts (which is typically how I operate) and over time my connection to it flourished. Through yoga, I have gained flexibility I didn’t have as a child. I wasn’t one of those kids you could’ve stuck into ballet or gymnastics. I truly – and painfully – learnt how to slow down. My longest consecutive day streak of daily yoga was approximately 62 days. Having to hold your body in positions you are not used to, truly brings back the attention to the body.

One of my favourite things about being an eclectic spiritualist is, I enjoy seeing patterns. Whether across cultures, modalities or language. The tools you learn in meditation and the tools you learn in yoga are transferable. Between each other and they are skills you can use in other aspects of life. Yoga and meditation have taught me to sit through discomfort. I can better sit through pain, feel it and acknowledge it. I learnt how to turn my attention from outside to inside. The internal world awaiting was a beautiful expansive galaxy.

I encourage grounding by going on walks. Even if you cannot exercise without music, allowing yourself to be more present. Notice how many steps you make within a square on the footpath. Notice the birds that are chirping. The neighbour hacking at the stubborn corner of his lawn. Name this moments internally. Bless them. Thank them for your having witnessed them.

One great way to experiment with your inner knowing is to play games with yourself. If you’ve ever caught yourself going I bet the next person to walk through that door is wearing a yellow rain jacket then you’ve already played the game. Start having internal conversations with yourself. Stay curious. Notice when you meet someone shake their hand and you suddenly want to recoil. You wish you hadn’t touched them. Then your brain tells you that you are judging a book by it’s cover. That’s when you stop and just notice those two interactions. Your body knows something your brain doesn’t know yet. Your logical brain is almost primitive in that it requires evidence to believe something your body already knew.

When you enter a classroom and you suddenly perk up, those are things you should be noting. When you have excitement in your body, if no one was watching where is it stored and how does it like to be expelled? Sometimes my body likes to shake out excitement like a dog. I feel full body tingles and I just need to disperse the energy. Sometimes the excitement is in my limbs so I shake those out. Another game you can play is to sit down and ask your body where do you feel x? Where are you storing my anxiety? How am I feeling about this project I’ve been asked to be on?

In the event that something is really bothering you, learn how to ask your body. Then you sit, observe and wait. It will come. Not overnight and it won’t be a Hollywood experience. But it will be your experience. It will be something no one can ever take away from you. It will guide you in rooms your brain never caught up to the danger.

Start asking your body what it wants to eat and drink. As your body how it wants to be held. Not what you think or what someone else says. Connecting with your intuition is about having curiosity again. A childlike wonder for your body. Imagine you find out that humans have only interacted with 70% of their bodies’ functionality? I would hope that it would spur you on to discover it anew. Your curiosity can be the difference between you feeling empowered and you succumbing to intellectualism over sensuality. We don’t do that around here, partner.